chiNky tInKeRbeLL's rAnDoM rANts ...

Gratitude from last week:

Monday June 22 78/365

First day of the week.. loving my hair & my outfit
on my inspiring days to lose weight (I'm looking fat again, oh no!)
loving to take pictures of myself
Reading Paulo Coelho's Brida
Never ending work!

Tuesday June 23 79/365

me, on a tuesday rush at the office
more & more encoding works
being incredibly good at customer service
my hair looking like goldilocks and I really love it
veggie lunch
thrilling episodes & action scenes of Tayong Dalawa

Wednesday June 24 80/365

still, on the go on my encoding works
fulfillment on lessening my pending workloads
chatting with joy & maye makes my day alive
a bit sad but trying to cope with the feeling
bedrest at night and watching TV

Thursday June 25 81/365

it's cut off day at work
rush day making productions aiming for the budget
good song background while working on pressure
lovable daughter who'll kiss me when I got home (sweet!)

Friday June 26 82/365

Friday on the go
done with my QP reports
it's payday
luxuriously express massage at body rehab
my new blue jelly havaianas flip flops
black manicure & pedicure

Saturday June 27 83/365

Trip to Manila (it's Doz bday!)
lots of foods
bonding & reuniting with my Cybercare family
newly meet friend Sis Clariz (no dull moments with her...)
it's somehow a bad day but still thankful that hubby & I arrived home safely

Sunday June 28 84/365

Sam's Bday at Golden Dragon
wonderful feeling for joining a kid's party together with my hubby & Leigh
games & prizes (yipee!)
bonding day with my daughter at home
restday
watched KC's For the First at home (for the 2nd time, I really appreciate the story!)

I have been a little behind on blogging, and a lot behind on doing my gratitude lists. Here is mine from LAST week. It is always good to remember what I am grateful for.

Monday June 15 71/365

Wonderful Monday!
My Singapore pictures uploaded on Fs
Appreciating (my cousin) Maye's openness and trust on me
Spicy Japanese Seafood noodles for lunch
Night time hobby of watching ( I can't get enough through it!)

Tuesday June 16 72/365

Work, work & work
Loving Leigh's new pictures designed by hubby
Glad having a text mate while working
Chatting more with Maye

Wednesday June 17 73/365

Rainy Wednesday
Great chance of moving to another work out of the country
Inspired to work
Quite done with my July renewals
A luxurious back massage at Body Rehab
Relaxed body and a nice sleep

Thursday June 18 74/365

A jolly email conversation at Cybercare group
Finally done with my July renewals
Dinner together with my fam
I will never miss watching of course
Slept late texting

Friday June 19 75/365

Pretty & nice wash day outfit
Really loving my curly hair
More inspired to work
Listening to music while working
Night out with Friends
Going home at 230am (Oh no, I'm quite drunk!)

Saturday June 20 76/365

A wonderful day of staying at home
Lazy all day, lying in bed watching
Eating & sleeping after!

Sunday June 21 77/365

Another day of sleeping & relaxing
Bonding time with my hubby & Leigh
Watching Twilight (again) in the morning & High School Musical 3 at night
Attending the mass with my hubby & the two kids
Shopped at Union Square
Grateful for the behaved attitude of the kids (they really are!)

"It's just emotions that's taking me over, caught up in sorrow.."

I laughed. I cried. I whispered. I sang my lungs out. I can't sleep. All because of my emotions. Just emotions.

I realized that my being lethargic in nature stops me from appreciating what life has to offer me. I can't be happy all the time. I realized that sometimes I have to stop and cry to let out all the pain bottled up inside me. Crying is healthy, they say. But what I like most about crying is that you get to be both happy and sad while tears are flowing from your eyes. I guess being emotional is really part of me. A part of my so called pathetic life. Am I being too emotional? Sorry, Just emotions.

While trying to escape the tiredness, I browse for some friends blogs at fs and while I read, I've found something which somehow I was touched and the message was really pleasant... (Sorry for posting this without your consent, but later on I know you'll be able to read this)...In my deepest thoughts, I can really relate with this emotional thing ...

I'm trying to hold on to many things..until finally, I realize that the more i hold on to it, the less it becomes mine...

I never wanted things too haphazardly, I enjoy the pressure, the challenge, and the excitement it gives me..but when do we say too much is too much?

And I answered, when I know it's time to let go..when the time is too short, when the body can no longer take it all in, when the mind is too occupied to think more..

There are a lot of keys to success, but there is only one key to failure and that is to please everybody..

just a thought..

With all my busy works and busy lifestyle these past few weeks. I'm trying to catch up on everything. Meanwhile, I will never ever forget to be grateful for things I was blessed at.


Saturday June 6 64/365

Early wake up time
Doing financial statements at 6am (how was it?) =)
A thoughtful husband who drove for me & my friends at the airport
Singapore Trip
Coping up my fears on the plane turbulence (huh?! deep breathes & prayers!)
Accommodating landlady during our stay at SG
Meeting May & her fam
Deliciously, new discovered food chicken & beef satey (thanks to Nas)
Dinner & the "pub thing"
Enjoyable tour, no regrets!

Sunday June 7 65/365

Sightseeing at Sentosa
My blue hat
Merlion memory pictures
Riding the Skyride and Luge twice (yipee!)
Wonderful companion during our tour
Riding the Tram back & forth
Watching the Songs of the Sea
Loving the day so much.
A delightfully cold peach drink

Monday June 8 66/365

Shopping day at Mustafa, Burgis Street & China Town
Meeting my cousin at her work
Dinner at Marina Square
Hot Pot
Pictures, pictures & pictures

Tuesday June 9 67/365

Colorful new earrings
Thankful for a peaceful plane trip
Home Sweet Home
Seeing my hubby & Leigh
Lots & lots of Stories

Wednesday June 10 68/365

Back to work and it is fun to have a new dress and earrings
Loving my look for the day
Enthused to work
Grateful for eating noodles at lunch (is that wrong?)
And another day of living

Thursday June 11 69/365

Two days work week
Flirty & flouncy new office blouse
Butterfly earrings
On the go to Work the whole day
Grateful for my blog which is my creative outlet
Bonding time with hubby & Leigh

Friday June 12 70/365

Independece Day & it's a holiday
Staying at home spending time with the 2 kids
Salon day with hubby & Leigh, loving my fabulous new curly hair
Watching my fave night show, Tayong Dalawa
Weekend ahead

I can't hardly believe that I won't be able to finish my Singapore story in just one sitting, I guess that, as it is with many bloggers, sometimes I feel the urge to just live things and not write about them.

At least, not immediately.

So again my Singapore trip, here it goes...

And so after departing at Changi Airport (Budget Terminal), we immediately get our baggage and of course, didn't forget to take pictures. We headed to Jurong West where we stayed for the rest of our tour. It's somewhat far away but every place we passed by is really a perfect place to live in, it was so peaceful around. As soon as we arrived at Jurong we take a rest for a while and take the chance to had a conversation with the landlady who's really accommodating. We left at 5pm and met our friends Kuya Cho and Chris who's working in Singapore. Joy and I, enjoyed sight seeing the Merlion, Singapore flyer and the currently under construction building. (Of course, we will always had pictures first and foremost). I've got the chance to meet my cousin Ate Maye with her family and we dined out along the Street. I loved the Satee (I don't know if that's the right thing to spell it) which Nas introduced with us to eat. Raihanna, their daughter who's also with us is really cute and she behaves a lot. After dining out, we proceeded to a Pub behind the UAR building, and drink a few. It was an enjoyable night though there were some odd things which happened. But my first night in Singapore, is definitely good. We drove the taxi going home and around 1am, we're at Jurong and still chatting on what happened for the day.

On the second day, our itinerary is Harbour Front, Vivo City and Sentosa....

We arrived at 1030am at Harbour Front then had a glanced of the Vivo City. We take the trail at the Harbour Front going to Sentosa. We had Chris and Des as our tour guide and we're really so glad they had given us some time. The day was spent taking pictures at the Merlion, riding the Sky ride and Luge twice, sightseeing at the Siloso Beach, passing at the hanging bridge, visited the outside view of the Underwaterworld and watching the Songs of The Sea. I love riding the Luge and watching the Songs of the Sea, the entire show was incredible. We had dinner at Vivo City and almost got home at 1130. Our second day was really tiring but it was so much fun!

The third day.... shopping for "pasalubong"

The day was really set for buying stuffs we will give to our friends and family.
We have spent the day just us alone, and since it's Monday we already had no tour guide because our friends who's staying there have work. We went to Mustafa, Burgis Street and China Town for the stuffs we will bring home. We love the cheap price but of good quality shirts as well as some accessories. I went to my cousins office for some briefing of my soon to be work (hopefully!). We dined at Marina Square and enjoyed the "hot pot thing." Took pictures nearby Singapore flyer and the Esplanade Mall. Again, it was a tiring day but lots and lots of fun! Arriving home, well it's packing time and the next day we'll be going back home.

So early Tuesday Morning... goodbye time for Singapore! But enjoying so much the place and almost everything in there I'm really wanting to probably have a job there. (Hmmm, as I usually do when I badly want something, I crossed my fingers... )

Here are some of the captured moments of my Singapore Trip....

So I went to Singapore over the weekend of June 6th and in the tradition of love/hate, I have a few of my own for Singapore.

First of all, the loves.

I loved the upscale shopping, the shows, the gorgeous hotels, restaurants, bars, the extraordinary landscape of the country, the people whom I noticed are remarkably honest and very disciplined. I was amazed by the beautiful roads, lovely residential areas and the boasts of several tourists spots and the lifestyle itself.

As for the hates:

I just hated the hot weather. It was uncomfortable to be walking down the street and have the sun beating down on you and the endless concrete.

This is how my first plane trip goes..

So on the first day, June 6th. We arrived at the airport at 8am. 2 hours prior our check in time. It was still long hours of waiting before we finally reached the checking in point. There were lots of people going to Singapore that day. I feel a bit irritated on the long hours of waiting but at the same time excited. It's almost our flight time when we're ready for boarding after being blocked off since we had some stuffs not allowed in our hand carry bag. But fortunately, the officers in the airport gave us a consideration to had it checked in for free. (Big Smiles! =)... )
We boarded in the plane at 1035 and it takes off at 1045. It's a little bit delayed since the weather was really not good, it's been raining hard. As the plane takes off, Oh no! I tried to relaxed but on the back of my mind I feel agitated. But it's easy to pretend though, somehow I've controlled my fears. It's just that every now and then the plane experienced turbulence because of the presence of the clouds and the rainy weather in the Philippine territory. The flight normalized when we reached the outbound area. Well, after almost 4 hours of plane trip, my foot reached Singapore at 2pm.

to be continued....

Catching up on gratitude—it has been awhile and I am doing these strictly pre-vacation memory. I may have forgotten some details but still trying to remember the things I'm grateful of.

Monday June 1 59/365

Busy day at work, catching up on my workloads
Really wanting to buy a white shorts and the effort trying to find one that suits me
Counting down for my Singapore trip, just 5 days to go!
Chatting with my cousin about my SG job application
Never ending thrilling episodes of Tayong Dalawa

Tuesday June 2 60/365

Done with my Quality Plan reports at Work
I've got my new white shorts and in addition a yellow abercrombie shirt
Grateful for being given the chance to make a write up about our Charity Works
Thankful for Ate Fe for really appreciating my work
Wonderful night with Hubby & Leigh

Wednesday June 3 61/365

Work, work and work!
Grateful for my newly found friend Kuya John
Rainy day
I'm done with my initial packing
Cuddling time with Leigh
Every night hobby of watching

Thursday June 4 62/365

Really loving and enjoying blogging
Thankful for Mom who always remembers texting me
A loving husband who reminds me of my things to bring for my trip
Earning a lot of friends in Friendster
Plans on our SG trip
Addiction in watching after dinner.

Friday June 5 63/365

Settled on my pending works before taking a leave
Extreme excitement for visiting Singapore
Singapore Dollars
Final packing and ready for the Trip
Purple nails
Sleeping late because of over excitement! Haha!(that's too much!)

I have booked for Singapore a month ago, and tomorrow is our flight to the beautiful country. I'll be there for four days and three nights. I am so excited.

Soooo, tomorrow, I will be going here:








It's okay...I won't be mad if you're jealous! Justtttt kidding, but really, I am SO excited. I love to see Singapore and the city, but shopping is my thing. I've always LOVED shopping, and I cannot wait to see those cheap stores and malls.

"Move out of your comfort zone. You can only grow if you are willing to feel awkward and uncomfortable when you try something new." -Brian Tracy

It's an odd thing, this quote is bugging my mind, because it really expresses perfectly what I've been feeling lately. I know.. I know.. I should not be feeling this way. Being upset just like having tantrums doesn't suit for a twenty five year old like me.

Anything else? I really want to move out from this shell and prove that I can be great.

As I've mentioned before, I'm absolutely loving my job and I'm enjoying each hour as well, talking to clients every now and then, it makes my day. Apparently the odds are, I'm getting impatient with my boss each day. I'm not in favor into someone else taking for granted his work, becoming irresponsible and expecting other people to do the job for you especially if you're the boss. Oh common, it's terrible! This irritates me so much, being in this nature of work for almost five years and being with my boss for four years. I think that is my downfall: I am getting impatient.

It's been a long time when I started having second thoughts continuing to work in my job especially when I really don't feel the need of being appreciated. So how was that? It's just that our higher superior encourages me to stay, and the company itself stops me from moving out to another work. It's just so hard to work when your boss himself doesn't had the push to struggle working which supposed to be he's the leader on everything else. It's so difficult to handle and it's seriously annoying!

Here lies my dilemma... I'm having the agressiveness wanting to move to another work. Basically, a more fulfilling job, better people to be with, and of course, granted, a much higher salary. It's been five years that I'm being in this non life insurance nature of work. And I think it's time for me to move on and try a more challenging and rewarding job. It might be too hard to encroach to another work considering that I'm already used with my lifestyle at work. But, lately I've started freaking out and I badly need change. Seriously, I need to grow more. I couldn't just wait here, assuming that my boss will soon enough appreciate my efforts, a much higher expectation- a promotion maybe, or someday he will realize that he himself needs to change the way he struggle at work. In fact, I've long waited for that, yet nothing comes into reality. That's why, here I am... wanting to do it on my own, to have a more enthuse and motivating job.

Otherwise, I'm wishing that all will went well. For now, I'm going to keep trying to enjoy each day on its own merit.

I'm currently bored at work since my PC has some technical errors connecting on our server. So, I want to share some of my few random obsessions that have been on my thoughts these days:

1. Tayong Dalawa. Um, hello? How did I ever hear about this show? I don't think I can even put into words how obsessed I am with it. (But, of course, I'll attempt to). I have, quite literally, watched every episodes in the last two months. And, given that every episode is about 45 minutes long, I don't even want to figure out what percentage of those days I've spent glued to our television, watching episode after episode during night time. Let's just say, it's been a lot.

Really, though? The show is genius! I can't get enough! At the end of every episode, it's like I can't physically wait for the next scene on the succeeding day. It's like a sickness. I laugh, I sigh, I talk to the screen, I get sad. I become entirely too emotionally invested in the story lines, etc.

So, maybe some of you need to immediately start watching it. I need someone to vent to about all the crazy shenanigans that are going down. Badly.

2. Royal. Seriously, I should not be trusted in this store alone. Last week, I ended up having a grocery there with my husband, and right when I walked through the doors, I could feel the adrenaline coursing through my veins. It's an issue, really. Everywhere I turn in that store, I see something that I need to buy. Because everything is really appealing, for some reason.

Racerback white shirts? I LOVE RACERBACKS!
Flipflops? I LOVE FLIPFLOPS!
Colgate with free Spongebob tumblers? LEIGH DEFINITELY LIKE SPONGEBOB STUFFS!

When, in reality, I don't need any more racerbacks, since I really have lots of them. As well as flipflops. I absolutely have stocks of extra toothpaste. Really? What is that? Quite frankly, it grosses me out. It makes me physically ill. Yet, when I'm at Royal, it seems like something I desperately need to add to my life.

Luckily, this time I only strayed a bit from my shopping list. The only extra things I walked out with were an adorable huge thing of Colgate Toothpaste because of the Free Spongebob tumblers (the cuteness is almost too much). I couldn't physically resist.

3. Singapore. I can't stop fixating on the fact that there are only three days until I leave for Singapore with my friends for a tour and to meet my lovable cousin. There are hardly words to describe my giddiness. Weee! As they say: let the shenanigans begin! (Well, okay, maybe I'm the only one saying that. Whatever).

So, what are few of your random obsessions? Do tell. (Especially if they involve Tayong Dalawa, Spongebob tumblers and Singapore. Then I'll feel like less of a hot mess).

Here it is... after long months of waiting, it's finally out and I've watched the official trailer just a few minutes ago. I totally love it. The trailer gave me chills. I can't hardly wait to see the movie. Seriously, I had the biggest grin on my face, squealing with delight like a twelve year old. hahaha! Sanity, it drives my nuts.

Of course, I'll always be a self-confessed Twilight Saga obsessed. (obviously!)



Is it November yet?

And me, a squealing 12 year old, haha! or I should say a twenty five year old fan freaking out waiting for November! OMG!