chiNky tInKeRbeLL's rAnDoM rANts ...

"Move out of your comfort zone. You can only grow if you are willing to feel awkward and uncomfortable when you try something new." -Brian Tracy

It's an odd thing, this quote is bugging my mind, because it really expresses perfectly what I've been feeling lately. I know.. I know.. I should not be feeling this way. Being upset just like having tantrums doesn't suit for a twenty five year old like me.

Anything else? I really want to move out from this shell and prove that I can be great.

As I've mentioned before, I'm absolutely loving my job and I'm enjoying each hour as well, talking to clients every now and then, it makes my day. Apparently the odds are, I'm getting impatient with my boss each day. I'm not in favor into someone else taking for granted his work, becoming irresponsible and expecting other people to do the job for you especially if you're the boss. Oh common, it's terrible! This irritates me so much, being in this nature of work for almost five years and being with my boss for four years. I think that is my downfall: I am getting impatient.

It's been a long time when I started having second thoughts continuing to work in my job especially when I really don't feel the need of being appreciated. So how was that? It's just that our higher superior encourages me to stay, and the company itself stops me from moving out to another work. It's just so hard to work when your boss himself doesn't had the push to struggle working which supposed to be he's the leader on everything else. It's so difficult to handle and it's seriously annoying!

Here lies my dilemma... I'm having the agressiveness wanting to move to another work. Basically, a more fulfilling job, better people to be with, and of course, granted, a much higher salary. It's been five years that I'm being in this non life insurance nature of work. And I think it's time for me to move on and try a more challenging and rewarding job. It might be too hard to encroach to another work considering that I'm already used with my lifestyle at work. But, lately I've started freaking out and I badly need change. Seriously, I need to grow more. I couldn't just wait here, assuming that my boss will soon enough appreciate my efforts, a much higher expectation- a promotion maybe, or someday he will realize that he himself needs to change the way he struggle at work. In fact, I've long waited for that, yet nothing comes into reality. That's why, here I am... wanting to do it on my own, to have a more enthuse and motivating job.

Otherwise, I'm wishing that all will went well. For now, I'm going to keep trying to enjoy each day on its own merit.