chiNky tInKeRbeLL's rAnDoM rANts ...

I don't have much to write about, but I wanted to put a few thoughts into writing, I guess. And this photo and quotation really fit my mood. I love when an image really catches me, and captures my attention. It really made me think, I guess. And also made me want to sink into a tall field of grass all by myself, where I could sit and ponder life and stare up at the sky for hours. There would also be calm, folksy music playing in the background, and perhaps a goat would walk by and ask me how my day was, and then the flowers would start singing and all would be well in the world.

That, of course, didn't happen. But it's a nice thought, anyway.

I've been trying to focus my thoughts on the positive things lately. It's difficult for me sometimes, which sounds terrible, but it's true. My pessimism has been a recent phenomenon - something that only recently manifested itself within the last several years. (I think I'm more of a chronic worrier than a pessimist) I believe that most of this comes from the simple fact that the older you get, the more you know. If that makes any sense at all.

Sometimes I wish I could go back to being the girl who thought everything was safe, happy and perfect. Quite frankly, I miss my bubble. I find that it's a lot more difficult to keep an optimistic outlook when you become aware of all the sadness and bad things in the world.

Anyway, I've tried to soak up the good things in my life. And I hope I can continue to do so. I want to find a way to recapture my eternal optimism. I really do.