chiNky tInKeRbeLL's rAnDoM rANts ...

My thoughts are being stucked in my head. I'm close to getting insane the past few days. haha! Again, I'm in my deep thinking stage. Oh no!

But the real scenario is that I'm super excited for my upcoming Singapore four day trip on June 6 to 9. This will be my first airplane trip and I'm feeling such an emotional upbeat. My planned SG trip is a double purpose actually, it's a tour and a job hunting trip in a fortunate basis. I'm just hoping that the duration of my travel at Singapore will be enough for me to fulfill my purpose, that's why up to this time me & my companion Joy are having second thoughts to extend the trip until the 12th. But between the two, my priority is of course to find a job that suits my qualification. I have already asked my cousin who's based in Singapore to help me out find a job. If God permits, this might be the turning point I'm waiting for so long.

Being wise and practical, I won't be resigning in my job, since I still don't have any assurance that I might be hired in SG through the help of my cousin. I don't know but, I'm having this feeling that I'll be coming back in my present job after the trip. But there's a part in my mind that dictates me to set up my mind that I'll be hired and fulfill hubby & I's plan.

I know this will not be as easy as I "assume" it was. (i'm just trying to have a positive outlook for me not to be freighten or anything else) As my hubby said I should not be scared when an opportunity comes. I guess, I'm just being excited, overwhelmed and nervous (yes, that's what I'm feeling at this moment) in this major turning point of my life.

Of all things, I'm preparing for the change because deep inside I'm aware that I need a change, a growth, besides I'm not getting any younger. And as days passes by, the more I get pressured that I need to prove something to myself and I can make a difference. As what I wrote in my journal's cover - the key is to allow myself to make the journey.